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Making extremely tiny good luck mascots, let me know if you want to commission your zodiac animal or get your pet portraited. Cannot guarantee they’re lucky but I’m imbibing them with all the love I can muster.

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In my custom @gabriellamarinagonzalez_ belt 🐊

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In my local meadow by @j0eskilt0n

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My wilting wildflowers in the Helmut Newton inspired vase I made at @corearts 🐊

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My favourite activity

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@yuki_tsujii_ made me golden

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pearls

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making this face every day of my life

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👁‍🗨 @panjasecki

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Edvard Munch - Vampyre / Love and Pain

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Boysey acting circles around me in this beautiful short film by @claesnordwall inspired by @ohtisband ‘s track ‘Runnin’ Have a watch have a listen 🥀 DOP: @josephdunn_dp HMU: @jessicahartmua COLOURIST: @alexgregorycolour 1st AC: @tobyrothwell funded by @fulltimehobbyrecords & commissioned by @mattjhharris

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Boysey acting circles around me in this beautiful short film by @claesnordwall inspired by @ohtisband ‘s track ‘Runnin’ Have a watch have a listen 🥀 DOP: @josephdunn_dp HMU: @jessicahartmua COLOURIST: @alexgregorycolour 1st AC: @tobyrothwell funded by @fulltimehobbyrecords & commissioned by @mattjhharris

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Me, soapy by @maximeimbert

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How we sleep

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Feelin bit sick

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💌

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🦂

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The best ever pic of the best ever guy

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🔙🔛🔝🔜

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In heaven (🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿)

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Today a year ago I was admitted into psychiatric care following an interrupted suicide attempt. It’s taken a while, but I can now say that I am truly grateful for this extra time that I was so certain I didn’t want. I’ve had mixed feelings about posting, in case clients questioned my competency to work or in case it’s triggering to anyone struggling but I think it’s important, because every person I speak to has experienced the same thoughts. I was completely sure that I had exhausted all my options and was incapable of change but I can happily admit I was wrong. Treatment involves trial and error, so it’s worth starting the process early and before you reach a crisis point. Speak to your doctor, nhs therapy has long waiting lists, but they can advise you on cheap alternatives or local charity run services. Be very honest if you feel you’re in danger, especially when trying medications, they are not for everyone and you may have to try a few to find a fit. Self love isn’t always realistic when you’re unwell and it’s a concept that’s preached a lot during discussions around mental health, and can be damaging more than helpful. You don’t need to love yourself to get better, you just need to respect yourself as a combination of organs that can get sick and need care. Everyone is vulnerable and nobody is weak for suffering, ignore everyone else’s progresses and make no comparisons. I’m here if anyone wants to talk, and here is the number for Samaritans who are extremely helpful 116 123 Thank you to everyone who kept putting me back on my feet this year xx x

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🦇

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🙃

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🐍

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Sweet angel

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Nurse fluffed my iv placement and gave me some general anaesthetic right to the arm muscle I am now as sore and useless as I was always destined to be 🍻

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🚮

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🏮🎏🏮

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little demon on my head

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Stranded in Brighton, Ray Mearsed ourselves a nest in a driveway, someone send help @ruby_von_monster

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Want kisses

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2013! @picpicpiczo

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🆒

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All love @maisiecousins

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🌞

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Mega spider warning ⚠️ 🕷 couldn’t have done it without you @torarose_

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An happy boat boy

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💫🌱 @j0eskilt0n 🌾🌞

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Parkour by @jamesburges

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Catastrophic

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Bullen 💣