If you saw my YouTube video a month ago, I shared I left Los Angeles. Tbh, I was probably at my lowest point and I knew I needed a fresh start where I felt the most myself. Some days I would cry in sadness, sometimes in anger but no matter how I felt, I made it to the gym because I always felt stronger after. Tbh, I NEVER worked out. Not since high school when it was a requirement. I only started training because I was winded when I use to run up the stairs and I knew I couldn’t live like that anymore 😂the thought of working out was repulsive and the hardest moment was actually making the call to set an appointment with my personal trainer, @siavash.motiei at @checkonitfitness. I have a before photo but I’m literally naked in it so I won’t share lol 😅 after 2 months with Sia, he’s influenced me to eat healthier (not count calories) just healthier like cutting down from 3-4 bags of hot Cheetos a week to just 1 hahah! Since I’ve moved to the OC, I started seeing @derek__alan and the days I don’t go to the gym, I think about being there. Honestly, I am a different person now. I can’t believe I actually lift weights, see a personal trainer and love working out. I didn’t start working out because I wanted to have abs or look better in clothes. I started working out because I didn’t feel healthy and I was really sad. I wanted to work on myself and become physically stronger. I wanted to devote energy into me and taking care of my body. It’s only been 3 months and I’m starting to see physical results which is really a lovely side effect of focusing on my mental health. I’m so much happier mentally, my body feels stronger and the bonus is I’m looking better too! All my love, KO
Waves aren’t just for the beach 🌊 Love getting my hair curl on using the @amika High Tide Deep Waver, and it took less than 5 minutes! 🏄🏻♀️ #Amika #Ad
Felt cute with Britney, might delete later
4 year old me got it! Hahah my parents used to dress me up all the time and I remember feeling so pretty in this particular outfit. They love me a lot but also have huge expectations for me as their first child. I recently watched @skii’s new #ChangeDestiny docuseries with Katie Couric called #Timelines and I especially related to Maina in the Tokyo episode. In my newest heart to heart video on YouTube I react to the films and open up about dealing with different kinds of pressure growing up in my asian household and how I dealt with their expectations for me to be successful and married at a certain age versus the timeline I want for myself. Do you ever feel pressure from your parents or society? Share your stories in the comments and swipe to watch a clip of the film. You can see more of the films @skii. #skiipartner
One of my favorite fruits are strawberries! Aren’t they so juicy? 🍓💦 A summertime staple, just like the hydrating and lightweight ‘Bare With Me Cannabis Sativa Seed Oil’ collection from @nyxcosmetics. #ad
I’ve been having so much fun with makeup lately and what started it all is because I lost all my makeup brushes in my move away from LA I’ve low key been forced to create different looks that doesn’t involve blending eyeshadows. This one reminds me of Pikachu 💛💛💛 Brows @hourglasscosmetics Black eyeliner @toofaced Yellow eyeliner @fentybeauty Lips @emcosmetics faded clementine
If I was a Pokémon, I’d be Charmander 🔥💥
one lipstick to do it all. conquer eyeshadow, blush, and lipstick with @guccibeauty’s new Rouge à Lèvres Satin collection. here i used the shade ‘103 Carol Beige’ #GucciBeauty @guccibeauty #ad
I’m at a festival but I’d honestly wear this everyday too! Would you wear this look to school? ————- Lips 👄 @Revlon Ultra HD Lip Vinyl Polish in “Power Up” Green eyeshadow @Revlon Eyeshadow Palette in “910 Player” White liner @fentybeauty Green liner @fentybeauty Brows @benefitcosmetics Cheeks @anastasiabeverlyhills Coral #RevlonXLolla #lollapalooza #makeup #graphicmakeup
Pink butterfly in Chicago 💕🌈
Pearl tear drops and silky smooth hair💧 brought the sea to the desert this Summer 🌾 Using the @amika iRed Polished Perfection Straightening Brush 2.0 + amika Shield Anti-Humidity Spray for this anti-frizz straight bb hair style #amika #ad
Guys I need song recs!
Intergalactic Princess Vibes 🌙 Channeling my inner Rhea from my favorite #WEBTOON series #HeliosFemina by @MichellePhan. Do you guys read comics on your phone? It’s been a guilty pleasure of mine and @webtoonofficial is my favorite app - they have a whole universe of stories for you to explore 🚀🌍 #ad
How long does it take you to do your makeup in the morning?? I’ve learned to take less than 10 minutes everyday doing my makeup with simple graphic designs and focusing on skin and texture. I use to hate all the texture around my nose but now I really love it! It makes my faux freckles look more realistic and lived in ✨❤️
What’s your favorite animal?
#ad • It’s glowing, it’s protected and it’s dewy. Meet my Summer everyday makeup ☀️ I’m using the new customizable @Clinique #CliniqueiD moisturizing kit to hydrate and prep for this look. My base is the Dramatically Different Hydrating Jelly for light-weight texture and the Fatigue cartridge for added radiance 💦 Head to my YouTube channel for a full tutorial on makeup + hair
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I’ve been a lot happier finding inner peace and belonging in myself. I just uploaded a new video on YouTube why i left Los Angeles. Peep 👀 it if you’re curious 💙
Type your MBTI type! Mine is ENFP-A 🍒💙
Uh hi 👋🏼 I’ve reverted back to my 2000s emo phase tysm ✨🌈
Help! Time to cut my hair into a bob!??
Had so much fun at the @UnframeTheBeauty flagship opening at 19 Howard in NYC! 🗽What makes UZ (pronounced Ooh-Zoo) special is each brush is handmade with custom fibers by traditional craftsmen from the Kumano and Nara regions of Japan 🇯🇵 I got to witness the process in NYC and it’s pretty insane how only 7 people in the world are skilled enough to do this special work but the brushes are only $16 💋 #UnframeTheBeauty #UZPartner #ad
1, 2 or 3? 🍒🌈✨
My heart is finally calm ✨🌈 check my stories for a room tour. I’ve just moved!
Trying something new 💚💚💚
So excited to announce I have my own personal shop with @verishop! 💕 Verishop curates recommended brands all in one spot 👠 check out my shop every couple weeks for new recommendations chosen by me! #verishop #ad
What deep 💭 r keeping u up rn?
Sometimes it be like that
What city are you from? It's hard for me to answer as a 3rd culture kid. I was born in HK, immigrated to murica when I was 8 and lived all over the silicon valley until I was 15. I went to high school partially in Guangxi Nanning China and partially in San Jose. I graduated with one other student my senior year because there were only 2 of us in the online school in China. I loved my time at UC Davis where I met the love of my life. Currently in LA and I never know where life will take me next but it's all about going with the flow and letting go of worries and xontrol 💞
I don’t want people to like me anymore I just want to like myself
1 or 2?
1, 2, or 3? Swipe left because that’s how the back of my hand always looks like 🤓I filmed this look I can’t wait 4 u to see 👀 Lips @3ce_official “new nude” #bbhoodz
Lashes and lips r my weaknesssssss! Just posted the winner from my random follow! Comment this emoji 👉🏼 🍼 🍼🍼for a follow and a random winner will get a follow and be announced in story
Should I film a tutorial on my summer skin makeup? ——— Liquid eyeliner @toofaced #ad #BetterThanSex Liquid Eyeliner Mascara @toofaced the #BetterThanSex Concealer @toofaced Born This Way Super Coverage concealer in light beige #tfbornthisway Lips @bareminerals gen nude borderline Brows @benefitcosmetics precisely my brows 4.5 Blush @anastasiabeverlyhills “terrace”
I know you’ve seen this set of pictures just yesterday but I’m posting them again because I want you to see the unedited versions &how even someone that seems so secure online is still working on myself &dealing with insecurities. It’s Asian Pacific American Heritage & Mental awareness month & I’m going to open up about my struggles and how I’ve been healing and working with my therapist for over a year now. I’m not looking for sympathy but I’m sharing my experience to bring awareness to mental health in Asian Pacific Americans. It’s really important to me bc there’s a gross disproportionate percentage of Asians (4.3%) in the psychological workforce &an even lower percentage of Asians seeking psychological therapy for mental illnesses. I’m a survivor of child abuse. When I was young, I had an academic tutor that intentional hurt & intimidated me &other children. Don’t worry, my family is really loving and had nothing to do with this. I wasn’t aware of the effects it had in my life until last year when I had a falling out with a long time friend & trying to heal from my miscarriage. I’ve always been really resilient & strong because I had to with the constant changes throughout my life. Last year was the first time I felt like I couldn’t breathe& I knew I needed help outside of me trying to figure it out &be “strong”. The trauma of abuse caused me to lack self confidence & be fearful of confrontations. I didn’t know how to set boundaries & protect myself. I didn’t love myself and I would always put others before me to a fault. I allowed people to walk all over me so I can be accepted and continually hurt me. I was a people pleaser bc I wanted to be loved. I’m a perfectionist bc I was never “good enough”. I learned life isn’t supposed to be fixed but experienced. These were obviously lies & it was a process to unlearn these thoughts and behaviors that became automatic. I would have never known these things about myself if I never found help when I felt confused & hopeless. I’ve healed a lot and I’m still healing. I’ve come a really long way to be able to even speak publicly & acknowledge I’m still dealing with self image issues.
Comment this emoji 👉🏼 🎀🎀🎀 and I’ll follow and shoutout a random account