The truth is I’ve had a complicated relationshipn with my sexuality. Being raised by born again parents fucked me for a long time. I spent some years rejecting it , some years hiding it, some years admitting it to myself - but not owning it. The truth is that for a lot of my life I’ve celebrated homosexuality, but remained homophobic towards myself. This fear of who I was made me do all sorts of crazy shit - at one point I even called for an end to pride parades. I was living in fear. I’m not anymore. I couldn’t feel more lucky to be gay - and I couldn’t be more excited to play LA’s Pride ! It’s been a long road towards my personal freedom. I think I’ve arrived. Thank you @lapride for having me.
We had fun
Too much queso
I got flowers tonight // blushing tbh and also cranberries music videos
Merch designed by me ❣️I’ll be doing a signing tonight , Orlando! Pic: @mad.o
Look when they paint ur face, take advantage
This guy right here is my right hand and played such a big part in the making of Brutalism - he was right there with me writing , recording, etc. Bryan , your such a beautiful soul and there is truly no one on the planet like u. Not a lot of people really understand me, but I think you got me from day 1! I feel very very very lucky and if you ever leave I might just die. 🧡 more love to @johnny_margate For additional writing (especially the tenderness you brought to ‘nervous’. ) also thanks to @chriscoady for mixing - you really did more than mix - you gave life to these songs and @sonnyyyyyy for production and engineering - you blow my mind!
Brutalism is now available everywhere. 🤧
I have been riding a creative wave like I’ve never known - I feel like the food I’m eating and the choices I’m making have given me space to look inside and start developing more as an artist. My travel addiction was my worst enemy - it sort of put my personal growth on pause. I couldn’t do the things I wanted to do - mainly be my best self. My therapist told me don’t move for a month - stay in LA no matter what. It’s been hard to do , but it’s been worth it. Being still for this long is not normal for me but it’s helping me get really good at figuring out what it is I need. When I eat something I feel it. When I do something I feel it. When I feel something I FEEL it. I’m fine tuned and super sensitive on all levels. I’m making music that isn’t for anyone else but myself - I work every day on it little by little. I paint each song before I record it. My songs start to match my paintings. Today I recorded a pink stripe. Tomorrow I might record blue dots. I never considered myself an artist - just a guy making music , but this month - and it’s still quality- has ushered me into a new phase of self obsession ( sometimes that’s not just good, but needed and long overdue ) where I get to do only what I want to do - where I finally take on the assured identity of human artist. My default behavior is to nurture others, but in order to grow I’ve decided to just nurture myself for a while. I re-bought the first synth I ever owned, I put colored lights in all the rooms , I need my home to be a dream every time I’m in it. Falling in love again with so many things that I had forgotten about - including myself. Anyway that’s where I’m at.
Los Angeles! The @livenation presale is happening right now just until 10pm PST tonight! the code is CELEBRATE. Link in bio
Me? Oh just causally reading Jean Genet... pic: @nicolasmoore / outtake from a night shoot with @spoon_magazine_official_
Change ur chemistry - notes from this morning. Forward this to someone who needs it. Don’t tag! That might be a little rough 😂
Saturday Feb 9 – Fly into Berlin Sunday Feb 10 - Day Off Monday Feb 11 Berlin promo Tuesday Feb 12 – Fly into London in the morning, promo in the afternoon/evening Wednesday Feb 13 – London promo, take Eurostar into Paris in the evening Thursday Feb 14 – Paris promo, take Thalys train into Amsterdam Friday Feb 15 – Amsterdam promo , train to Brussels Saturday Feb 16 - 20 Brussels, possible other cities
“I lean into the corner, I smell the wall, I smell it again”
Part of my evolving process for the new album was to bring in additional writers ( @bryanrulez @johnny_margate ) and producers (@bryanrulez @sonnyyyyyy ) , engineers (@sonnyyyyyy ) and mixers ( @chriscoady ). I had to let go and let GAWD ! As a result of being a little less of a control freak, we found perfect treasures. Body Chemistry is just the first that we’ve shared.
Choose your own adventure #brutalism #bodychemistry
Drink a brut wine w me #brutalism
Wow I can’t believe how much love was poured my way yesterday. I am grateful to you, to the press, and everyone who shared - and this is just the beginning for this record ! Here’s the single artwork for my new single “Body Chemistry” it’s out now and you can listen using the link in the bio. “Brutalism” out April 5 on @antirecords • @artsandcraftsmx • @tugboatrecords (April 3rd Japan)
Thanks Brooklyn for a perfect night - you were rowdy! Tonight we play @lifeisbeautiful in Vegas at 8:35pm!
Gotta go work in new york- Gonna miss u
Homo kind of day
If you are in Brussels or anywhere near, go see the beautiful exhibition of @pierredebusschere It is both delicate and strong - the perfect mix. It also features heavily the beautiful @ad.ks ♥️
The city of Marseille is full of life. There is fresh blood pumped through it’s veins. They opened their gates to refugees and the city is blessed for it. I feel like Marseille is on the verge of something new and thrilling. I haven’t felt excitement like this about a place in quite some time. @ad.ks and I left there feeling very inspired (and not just because of the hidden nude beach). Go visit kiddos! Pic: @ad.ks
What do you want i’m in france
On ikea sheets thinking about how justice might prevail 🤞
Me an hour before I walked on stage at @thegrowlersbeachgoth . High on an edible. So high I passed out. I don’t remember the show. Very unhappy about the experience. Will never do it again. I hate weed. I still feel terrible. Lol
Imma squash u