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omg i’m in the new yorker 😳😳🤯 —— three years ago i was lamenting to jacob that i wished i could draw. he told me that like anything else, drawing is a skill that takes time and practice, and if i wanted to get better at it i should take a class. (such practical advice!) so i took an intro to drawing class, but to get from there to actually making art was quite a nonlinear path for me, full of starts and stops. —— i still hesitate when calling myself an artist. it feels like i’m not enough of a “real” artist to deserve that title. but reflecting on my journey over the last three years is an important reminder to celebrate the process just as much as the milestones. —— thanks so much to @irvingruan and @newyorkermag for this opportunity, was so fun to collab with you on this project! ✨

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day 76 of #100daysofandnotor: “i accept who i am AND i want to change.” —— self acceptance is a journey and for me it hasn’t been a linear path. i’m in a healthier and more compassionate place with myself now, but there are many ups and downs to embracing what makes me unique, owning my difference, and honestly just building self confidence so i can move through the world without crippling anxiety weighing every decision i make. i have to work at being kind to myself. like it’s okay that i didn’t work on your art after my day job and instead came home and just watched 4 straight hours of veronica mars (not the new season yet, so no spoilers!) —— but accepting who i am doesn’t mean there aren’t things i want to change about myself. i want to become better, to grow in certain areas, change certain habits and develop new routines. live a healthier lifestyle. work out every day. make time for more of my art practice. be a good partner. be a good dog mom. call my parents 2x a week. call my grandma. eat more salads. focus better. —— but when does personal growth get to be too much? i want to believe my obsession with self improvement is about more than just increasing my own productivity and status, that it’s for a higher purpose to be a better version of myself, but who is that serving? is this something capitalism has actually just conned me into? and “personal growth” and change is just about finding new ways to win? this fixation on constant adaptation to improve can be very exhausting and depleting at times. so yeah idk. i’m both embracing acceptance while also trying to change. and trying to change how much i’m obsessed with change. —— 76/100

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day 75 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m a nice person AND i’m full of anger.” —— today’s words come from @realaskpolly. i recently finished her book, “how to be a person in the world,” a very poignant collection of essays from her “ask polly” advice column in @thecut. this duality of niceness while still holding anger really struck me, as i feel it’s a familiar battle for most women — whether at home or in the workplace. smile, be pleasant, don’t rock the boat. any demonstration of frustration or anger is taken as a reflection of your character, something bigger than simply experiencing a normal emotion. heather havrilesky writes, “a lot of women are afraid of being something.” i think my difficulty with my anger is that i want to be a nice person, but more importantly (and perhaps, problematically), i want everyone else to think i am nice. but maybe being nice isn’t the thing. maybe it’s just about being fundamentally good, which niceness doesn’t always correlate to. —— i’ve been angry since i was 15 years old. some of that anger was justified by bullies, the rest of it was probably chalked up to teen feels. anyone who knows me knows i carry a grudge like nobody’s business, and that anger for me doesn’t dissipate with time, but rather it compounds. i think anger is a really healthy emotion to express, and to own, especially as a woman. i want women’s anger to be taken more seriously, not dismissed. like there are so fucking many legitimate reasons for us to be pissed!!! but anger is seen as a Bad emotion, not a ~ nice ~ one. fuck it. i can be angry. and i can be nice. —— ps: for anyone interested in the subject, i’ve also started rebecca traister’s new book on this — “good and mad: the revolutionary power of women’s anger.” the book dives into the history of women’s anger and its role in fueling politics. —— 75/100

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day 74 of #100daysofandnotor: “what i do AND who i am.” —— hi, i’m back. i am going to finish this series even though it’s taken me wayyy longer than 100 days! it’s been a while, a lot of life has happened, and it’s honestly been a pretty tough and stressful time for me. i can’t remember a time where i felt such a lack of clear purpose, yet driven by abstract daydreams and pursuit of happiness, ~ success ~, or something in between. —— one of the new life things in the last 6 months was that i decided to take a full time job. a lot of factors led to this decision, and to be honest, a big one was financial sustainability. and my job is fulfilling in many ways, but it doesn’t wholly define me. i haven’t been able to make the time i want to for my own creative work and practice, which leads me to question - can i distinguish who i am from what i do? —— i am not (just) my work, but i measure myself through my work. and “work” as a default is our job, the work we do to support ourselves and make a living, not the work we do to feed our soul. our society is obsessed with defining and categorizing people by what they do. people rarely ask, “who are you?” (which i’d argue is a much more interesting question). they ask, “what do you do?” as a proxy for trying to understand who you are. what i do is a part of defining who i am, but it’s not the defining part. or is it? —— who am i? i’m a woman, a daughter, a sister, a partner, a dog mom. a product manager, an artist. i’m defined by my successes and failures, my family, friends and loved ones, the people in my life, what makes me happy, what makes me sad, what makes me angry, what gives me hope, and how i relate to the world. —— 74/100

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excited to share this project — did this illustration for @medium in honor of women’s history month. “revolution is not a onetime event.” audre lorde described herself as “black, lesbian, mother, warrior, poet.” her life’s work was fighting injustices: racism, sexism, homophobia. i wanted to honor her voice in this piece for medium, a platform where words matter. another one of my favorite quotes from her is: “women are powerful and dangerous.” ✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿

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“soft boss energy” aka my undying love for millennial pink

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the obliteration room

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yves klein blue 🍑

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colin kaepernick, hero. —— new illustration for @theoutrageonline’s heroes collection. i stand with colin kaepernick. his activism is an inspiration, his kneeling has become a movement, speaking truth to power. —— “I am not going to stand up to show pride in a flag for a country that oppresses black people and people of color. To me, this is bigger than football and it would be selfish on my part to look the other way. There are bodies in the street and people getting paid leave and getting away with murder.”

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i’m so excited be featured this week on @anxymag ☺️😍 i talked about the start of my creative journey, setting my intention for this past year as “start,” and the importance of embracing your full and complicated self. this was the year i told myself i was going to start doing the things i always wished i could do, like drawing! it was a perfect way to close out 2018, reflecting on this past year and what i’ve done, and how i’ve changed. thanks so much to the amazing team at anxy for showcasing my work 💕 —— check out the full interview on anxy’s blog (link in bio). swipe right for a few of my favs from my #100daysofandnotor project. and go pre-order a copy of their latest beautiful issue, the masculinity issue, on anxymag.com! —— 📷 @anxymag

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“i come up with new ideas and my canvas cannot keep up with me.” – yayoi kusama

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thousand oaks 🖤🖤🖤 this is the fourth shooting in a public, daily space in two weeks. how many more before we change the easy access to ammunition and arsenals in america? —— thinking of all my LA people and sending love.

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day 73 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m calm AND i’m angry.” —— this past week has been really tough. i’ve been in this state of constant anger, to the point where it’s no longer a fiery rage erupting beneath the surface, but rather a a dull, persistent anger that has faded from the foreground into an ambient presence. but it’s still there. the anger is a tax. i may be calm. i am able to go about my business. but i’m just angry. and that’s okay. —— 73/100

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anita hill, hero. —— “We are still ignoring the unique vulnerability of black women.” @kimberlecrenshaw wrote a very important @nytopinion piece outlining how we still haven’t learned from Anita Hill’s testimony. How “colorblind feminism did a profound disservice to Ms. Hill.” And how while the Hill-Thomas case was a “colossal failure of intersectional organizing,” it’s even more crucial that we learn from our mistakes for the fight against Kavanaugh’s nomination.

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i illustrated a collection for @theoutrageonline - link in bio ☀️☀️☀️ —— help #stopkavanaugh. 100% of proceeds from this collection assist prosecutors traveling to DC to protest the kavanaugh hearings. you can also head to the-outrage.com to sign up for their direct action email list. believe women. support women. care about women.

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day 72 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m informed AND i can’t watch the news.” —— today was a tough day. it’s okay if you can’t watch. it’s okay if you need a break from the news cycle. be kind to yourself. take care of yourself. turn it off. —— i’m in awe of the courage and bravery of christine blasey ford, and while i deeply admire her calm intelligence, my heart broke watching her testimony. watching her recount one of the worst experiences of her life, all the while holding her composure and remaining so polite and “collegial.” this in stark contrast to her assaulter, who can’t help but raise his tone and use anger and intimidation in an attempt to sidestep the truth. —— 72/100

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day 71 of #100daysofandnotor: “i have a budget AND i spend beyond my budget.” —— i like to think of myself as pretty financially responsible but i struggle with budgets. because i’m the one who made the budget i feel like i can always just... change the budget... to fit the needs of present katie 😇 i did challenge myself to not shop at all this year (discretionary spending) and i made it until september! but then i broke that streak when i went to tokyo 🙈 i do set savings goals and review spending periodically, but aside from rent and other fixed costs i’m pretty bad about budgeting. also i love shopping. so i guess that makes it hard. shoutout to @jessicasdf for inspiring today’s illustration, someone who gets the struggle 😂 also kindred spirits @thesophiapaloma and @infraredflower 💁🏻‍♀️ —— 71/100

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day 70 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m irrational AND i’m visionary.” —— too often in our society, bad men are propped up, moral values and personal judgments cast aside, and lauded as visionary, forward thinking, true leaders we should all aspire to. meanwhile, women are labeled irrational. women are unreasonable. you hear this sexist insult a lot, and it’s infuriating because it‘s saying that no one should try to bother to understand the “irrational woman.” it’s a flat out refusal to acknowledge or try to understand someone else’s reality. also using irrational as a justification and insult implies that being rational is better than having emotions. that simply isn’t true. emotions are essential to decision making. emotion intelligence is critical to business and workplace success. having and showing your emotions doesn’t make you weak; on the contrary, it’s a sign of strength. showing your emotions and being irrational makes me a goddamn visionary. —— 70/100

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day 69 of #100daysofandnotor: “i need alone time AND i get lonely.” —— i just got back from a solo trip to japan. i went for a @studiodradiodurans retreat, hosted by @janchip and @craigmod. it was a wonderful group of 19 strangers from all over the world. i was struck by how vulnerable and authentic everyone was, bringing their full selves and being so open and willing to share. it was also remarkable that even though many of us came from different background and diverse life experiences, we each were in a very similar place: at a crossroads for “what’s next,” asking big Life Questions like what is work for, how do i build a more sustainable creative practice, how do i keep the FUN in what i do? —— i spent some time in tokyo after the retreat. it was my second time in the city, and i loved it maybe a little more than the first time i visited. it was nice to find some comfort in the familiar places — restaurants, shops, neighborhoods — while also exploring new areas. this was my first time traveling alone in a while. it was a nice reminder to prioritize alone time AWAY from your daily routine and responsibilities. and as nice as it was to have some space and really do me, i missed my boys a lot 😢 nights for me are always the loneliest away from home. —— 69/100

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day 68 of #100daysofandnotor: “today i will do this thing AND i didn’t do the thing.” —— getting things done is challenging. even seemingly simple tasks can be impossible for me sometimes, especially when i’m going through a time of anxiety and negativity. i start each new day with the strongest determination, the most genuine intention to accomplish a certain thing. and often i can never bring myself to do it. sometimes it’s because the task at hand brings up other anxieties or stressors i maybe wasn’t previously aware of. other times the task itself isn’t HARD, at all, it’s just something i can’t bring myself to do. we all have things we say we’ll do. and we mean them with the purest of intentions, but somehow we don’t end up doing them. that’s okay. let yourself off the hook. if i don’t finish my day’s todo list, it sits in my stomach like a growing ulcer, and that’s not a healthy way to work. i tell myself: for the things that truly matter, i will find a way to get them done, or they’ll find a way back to me someday. —— ps this is my first and not or illustration done on the ipad!! learning curve but slowly getting it... —— 68/100

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a ktzhu x @faaaaaaatttttttt collab

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day 67 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m bored if i have to do one thing AND it’s stressful juggling multiple things.” —— i’ve always considered myself a person of multiple interests, and if i focus too long on one thing i feel suffocated. i consider myself a product manager, an engineer, a podcaster, an artist and a writer. i like to do it all, and i take pride in having a wide array of skills. i also know that there are only so many hours in the day and it’s not feasible to do all the things, let alone do them *well*. sometimes i do find myself getting overwhelmed with many projects, and think to myself i should just focus on one thing for a while. i focus for a bit, start yearning for something more and... then the cycle starts again. —— 67/100

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day 62 of #100daysofandnotor: “i lift up others AND i want to shine.” —— it’s very important to me to lift others up, especially those from underrepresented groups and who have less privilege and opportunities than i do. it can be small acts like backing each other up in meetings, showing compassion, to more proactive things like advocating for a non binary person to get their promotion, or to push for a woman of color in a leadership role. lifting up others does not mean you have to make yourself smaller, or that you won’t have opportunities. i want to shine as much as the next person. trust that you will have your shot. don’t be covetous and pay it forward. —— on that note…… y’all should follow @holeil, an amazing food/culture/travel writer and podcast host extraordinaire; @monachalabi, a wonderful illustrator of data; @robynkanner, freelance designer + writer extraordinaire; @smashfizzle, whose talent for words is inspiring; @andreapippins, an amazing artist and author whose work is colorful and empowering; @redindhi, badass designer and founder of @anxymag. tag someone i should follow in the comments! —— 62/100

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day 61 of #100daysofandnotor: “i need more AND i have everything i need.” —— i often get caught up in all the things i don’t have. i fixate on this stuff – stuff that isn’t mine or that i don’t have – as a way to distract myself, rationalizing that the STUFF will help me achieve my goals, STUFF will make me happy, STUFF will make me better off. i mean, obviously the reason i haven’t achieved my life’s dreams yet is because i haven’t found the perfect notebook…… 💁🏻‍♀️ but most of the time, distracting yourself just leaves you feeling worse. —— so this year i am not shopping (!). it’s inspired by ann patchett (an amazing author and co-owner of @parnassusbooks). she wrote an NYT oped at the end of last year about her “year of no shopping,” and i decided to see if i could do it too. as someone who firmly believes in the power of retail therapy, and an ardent endorser of the adage “whoever said money can’t buy you happiness doesn’t know where to shop,” i knew it was going to be a challenge for me. like ann, i made myself a set of arbitrary rules for my “no shopping,” because i wanted to be able to keep it up. i wanted to minimize my discretionary spending, so my general rule is: i can’t buy anything i don’t ABSOLUTELY need. i am allowed to eat out at restaurants, and buy coffee (i knew i wouldn’t last if that was a no-no). i’m also allowing myself to buy books – but only after i check the library, or i finish a book i already have. then, i only let myself buy from indie bookstores. i’ve slipped up a couple times, BUT i have not bought a new phone even though mine’s cracked to hell, and i haven’t bought any clothes, shoes, bags or makeup. —— not shopping has made me more mindful about my “i need this” impulse and appreciate more of what i already have (and i have a LOT OF SHIT). it’s helped me focus on what actually matters: people, experiences, creating things, and getting creative with what i have. it helps to have amazing friends like @infraredflower who periodically donate face masks 🙌🏽 —— 61/100

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day 60 of #100daysofandnotor: “i want a lot of things AND i don’t know what i want.” —— i keep a list of big dreams and goals, some more realistic and some pretty wild ones. it’s always fun to revisit, especially looking back at the dreams i had as a little girl: i wanted to be a teacher, i wanted to be a writer, i wanted to be a lawyer. i’ve always had a range of interests and wanted a lot of things — particularly the things i didn’t have 😂 navigating these last few months of independence, it’s been hard for me to figure out what it is i really want, and also what i want *now.* do i continue to pursue independence, creative freedom? or do i optimize for financial independence, equally if not more important to me? do i want more structure or more flexibility? i’m so lucky and fortunate to have the privilege to even be in this position of getting to step back and ask these questions, so i don’t take it for granted. but i’ve definitely been suffering from choice overload 🙈 —— 60/100

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day 59 of #100daysofandnotor: “i talk about doing stuff AND i do stuff.” —— some say there are two types of people: people who do stuff and people who talk about doing stuff. and the implication is always that the latter group is worse, because they’re not acting. i’m deeply both. i talk about doing a lot of things, unable to bring myself to actually DO anything. i talk about wanting to start my own business, but i’m often too scared to take even the first step. i talked a lot about focusing on art & illustration, but earlier this year i actually did *do* stuff to move forward — like quitting my job! sometimes talking about stuff is how you figure out if you even want to do the stuff to begin with. —— 59/100

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day 58 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m young AND i have grey hair.” —— hooooo boy do i stress out about my grey hairs!!! i think i started getting them when i was 17, before i went to college. and college was stressful, which i thought in turn gave me more grey hairs, which then stressed me out again and it was a great healthy cycle. i’ve tried plucking out a few, trying to will them away (the common belief that many more grow back in its place is maybe false? but it could damage the hair follicle which is also bad). i viewed white hairs as a sign of age, or stress, or some physical representation that my body is bad. it’s still hard for me to not think this way, to feel less confident and beautiful because i have long grey hairs, and lots of short ones that stand up straight on top of my head. it’s something i’m super self conscious about but i’m trying to embrace. age is not a bad thing. with age comes wisdom, experience, confidence, and acceptance (hopefully). —— 58/100

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today’s supposed to be day 100 of my #100daysofandnotor project. as y’all have seen, i’ve fallen behind and am only on day 58 😭😩 but my goal is to finish my project, in however many days 100 illustrations takes me. i’ve been really touched by the responses so far, it’s a huge source of motivation and inspiration for me. but 100 days is a loooonnngg time and some days it’s a grind. i made this lil poster as a joke for my sister @nicoledonut but it’s grown on me. it’s a nice reminder that if i’m feeling stressed or behind or stuck, i have to power to take a small step to reduce or reframe that stress. so my #100dayproject is gonna take me however long it takes me. 😇

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day 57 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m technical AND i’m fashionable.” —— often when i meet people for the first time, they’re surprised by my appearance because i don’t look like a “typical” software engineer (read: not a white bro in a t-shirt/jeans/hoodie). i wear dresses, or jumpsuits, and flowy capes and cardigans. so many of the amazing womxn engineers i know are also hella fashionable, some are literal models, fashion photographers, makeup artists and stylists. ( @jackiehluo has written about this, @sailorhg has these vibes on lock, @infraredflower is a makeup artiste, @sarajchipps has flawless style, @alexkimi is style goals.). i love seeing us challenge the conception of what “technical” looks like, one jumpsuit or contour at a time 💄 —— one of my fav power outfits is a @winsome_goods jumpsuit that i saw @vickiheart rock. leave a comment: what’s your power / boss bitch outfit??? —— 57/100

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day 56 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m powerful AND i’m an anxious mess.” —— i’ve been going through a tough personal journey since going independent a few months ago. i’m learning a lot about myself, in particular — i tend to procrastinate when i’m afraid to fail, i always focus on the tradeoffs and obsess about the things i’m NOT doing, and i’m more social than i thought and need regular human interaction (dirk is great but not a substitute lol). but just because i’m anxious about a lot of stuff, stressed out about my life and what i’m doing, doesn’t mean that i’m not powerful in my own way. power is about agency, about the ability to direct and influence others. and having the privilege to be able to take the time to figure out what i want to do in life — what’s more powerful than that? —— 56/100

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day 55 of #100daysofandnotor: “i mess up AND i’m worthy.” —— making mistakes is human. it doesn’t make you any less respectable, any less worthy, as long as you own your mistakes and learn from them. mistakes can feel really bad and be a big source of shame. i’ve definitely experienced that. it’s easy to then jump into negativity and believing you’re not good enough because you made a mistake. i’ve started to judge myself more not on the mistakes i make, but how i respond to them and what i take with me moving forward. for example, i mess up a lot in my relationship. i can get really competitive with emotional labor, and sometimes the way i bring it up to my boyfriend comes off very individualistic and not mindful of the hard work he does. i’m working on not getting so worked up about small things, and not placing blame or pitting myself against him so much. (it’s a process lol) —— 55/100

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friends!!!! i am showing my art (😱) this friday at a storytelling event for @aajaofficial at @impacthub_oak! there will be a silent auction with my artwork, and i’ll also be selling prints separately! it’s their inaugural pop-up style fundraiser, with an amazing lineup. all proceeds support AAPI journalists, so come thru and support a good cause. link in bio!

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day 54 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m competitive AND i’m a team player.” —— i’m the kind of person in a relationship who keeps track of who last did the dishes, and how many times on average they do a certain type of chore, because i’m very cognizant of the fact that household and emotional labor most often falls on women’s shoulders. of course, i’m happy to contribute to the TEAM, whether at home or at work, but being a team player does not mean you have to continually sacrifice yourself in the name of “the team,” or that you can’t be a little bit competitive. i’m a lot competitive, and i’m a good team player. the trick is knowing when and in what situations to prioritize which side. —— 54/100

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day 53 of #100daysofandnotor: “i have a podcast AND i have a blog.” —— podcasts are the new blogs 😅 i considered words my primary means of expression for many years. but i’ve enjoyed the creativity and different type of expression in creating audio and visual stories over the last year. i’ve always been inspired by all storytellers — how incredibly skilled they are at leveraging the unique aspects of their medium to tell such universal, compelling stories. —— 53/100

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day 52 of #100daysofandnotor: “i have a life plan AND life is not linear.” —— i’m type A, type 3 enneagram (the achiever) and i like to plan things. i like structure. i like goals, lists, organization. i like having a clear idea of where i’m going, what i’m trying to accomplish. the absence of this is very stressful and anxiety inducing for me. but in these months of creative independence, i’ve deliberately departed from my life path of what i thought i “should be” doing. i’m working on keeping myself open to possibility. embracing the non linear threads, nuggets, opportunities, to not be so myopic in my life view. both of these things can be true. i can have a plan, and my plan can include things that aren’t planned 😂 —— 52/100

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day 51 of #100daysofandnotor: “fuck the system AND how do i improve the system?” —— i’ve been thinking about this a lot. it’s easy to tear things down, especially things like THE PATRIARCHY – which yes, is fucked. but we can’t just blindly burn everything down (as appealing as that may sound). we need to work to improve the entrenched power structures in society, government, and culture. how can we make things better? how do we succeed in the system, and then help change the system to enable others who don’t look like us to succeed too? —— 51/100

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day 50 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m smart AND i’m beautiful.” —— growing up, i was praised for being smart. i was never pretty or beautiful, but i was smart. boys came to me for help on their multiplication tables, but took the pretty girls to the school dances. i’ve always valued my intellect and hard work, but i grew up wanting to also be beautiful, to be seen as beautiful. i’m so grateful to creators like @shondarhimes who have challenged these entrenched notions through her work, most notably on @greysabc. now my mantra is the wisdom of cristina yang: “oh screw beautiful. i’m brilliant. if you want to appease me, compliment my brain.” 😂 smart is beautiful! —— 50/100

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day 49 of #100daysofandnotor: “i’m good at one thing AND i have many hustles.” —— from a very young age, we’re taught that we should become really good at one thing. what do you want to be when you grow up? are you more of a math/science or art/humanities girl? what do you want to major in? which career path do you want to pursue? we’re warned: don’t be a jack of all trades, master of none. do you want to stay an individual contributor, or get into management? it’s all these ors, this OR that, pick one, specialize, and get really good at one thing. there’s some validity to this, of course, because anything worthwhile takes time. getting REALLY GOOD takes time. but it’s not so black and white. you can have one career path, and juggle different hustles, pursue different interests and skills. or you may be really good at one thing that isn’t your career, or maybe you’ve created a role or path for yourself that doesn’t force you to choose. as i meditate on my work, career, and the path i want for myself, i’m working to challenge these limiting beliefs that are instilled in us from a very young age. —— 49/100

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another shooting. what a year it’s been this week. another call for @policychange.

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slow down 🐢

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day 48 of #100daysofandnotor: “i judge myself AND i’m kind to myself.” —— there are days when i look at myself in the mirror and all i can focus on is negative and dysfunctional beliefs. i’m ugly, i feel fat, why don’t i work harder, why am i so lazy, why am i so undisciplined, why do i have no self control, why am i motivated by such surface level things. it’s important – especially on these days – to remind yourself to be kind to yourself. treat yourself as you would a friend. withhold judgment and go easy. today i felt myself spiraling into negativity and just said “i am doing great.” —— 48/100

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day 47 of #100daysofandnotor: “i want a place of ease AND i have ambition.” —— recently i was talking with a group of very talented asian american indie creatives about money, sustainability and confidence. i was (ha who am i kidding AM) stressed about balancing of my two big goals: financial independence and creative independence. @wolfchirp wildly advised: “meet yourself where you are without judgment or enabling... accepting that finding a place of ease is not the same as a lack of ambition.” —— i want to support myself, save for the future, save for retirement. i also want to be creatively fulfilled in my work. right now it feels like these paths are at odds, but not everything is so discrete and separate. —— 47/100

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day 46 of #100daysofandnotor: “all good things take time AND am i there yet?” —— being independent these last few months has been a lesson in patience, discipline, and confidence. these are all practices, not a switch you can turn on. it’s easy to get caught up in feeling behind, comparing yourselves to others, especially in today’s age of social media. it’s good to take a step back and remind ourselves that anything good, anything worthwhile takes time. and that’s ok. but it’s also ok to feel like you’re ready to be THERE, whatever “there” means to you. —— 46/100

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monday vibes 〰️

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y’all!!! i illustrated a Q&A with the hosts of @medium’s new podcast, @kararbrown and @manoushz. be sure to check out the podcast by searching for “Playback” on iTunes, the first episode is with @roxanegay74 😱🤗 link to the Q&A in my bio! —— thanks to @stomachheart and @sduboff for such a fun project! ✨🌷