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Shooting for @sebastianpro_official in Barcelona was a total dream!! 🥰 I’ve partnered with Sebastian to bring y’all amazing hair products, tips and hairstyles...Stay tuned for more! 👀🤩 #sebastianprofessional #Sebastianpro #ad

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bb’s first big event since my lil depression episode, & honestly, this is the best I’ve felt in a long time. I’m not sayin I’m better, bc I’m 💯not, but damn.... I look gooooooood and it was so nice meeting so many fans & getting so many hugs!! 🤗🥰❤️ S/O to my glam team: Stylist @meaghanpoconnor Makeup @makeupbyjmonroy Hair @eduardoponcehair #beautyconla #effyourbeautystandards

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Desperately clinging on to the last bit of sanity I have like 😶🙃 #adoptdontshop #lovemeplz

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Hi, it’s your fav crybaby here. It’s been a week since I’ve posted on here, or used any other social media & tbh, I’ve been tempted to not come back at all. This depression has been harder on me than ever, and I’m working through it slowly with therapy, exercise (& a lil 🌿💨 if I’m honest🤷🏻‍♀️). I’m grateful that my career is doing well enough that I’m able to take a step back and work on myself in a really intense & meaningful way. Social media is a great tool for connecting with others, & blah blah blah... but it’s not good for me right now. So for y’all asking, no, I’m not okay, but I’m making steps towards being ok. 💗

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She’s political, but nostalgic 💁🏻‍♀️

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Bowie will never know what it’s like to have a mom who doesn’t love her body. 🤯 Mind-blowing huh? I’ve been thinking about this because it’s summer and literally every activity is outside/in the heat, and we have the added pressure of people using toxic diet culture language like “beach bodies”. I’ve been a Mom for thirteen years, and early on with my oldest son, there were countless moments I missed out on. Why? Because I was too afraid to put a bathing suit on. Being seen in public somewhere that I couldn’t hide my fat body in a cardigan was my worst nightmare. I don’t have any photos of me & Rylee at the beach or playing in the pool because I didn’t own a bathing suit from the ages of 13-24. Even though it took me longer than I wished, I have amazing memories like this with Bowie and made up for lost time with my oldest too. Don’t let fear keep you from enjoying your life, you deserve beautiful experiences, and beautiful photographs to remember them by! #effyourbeautystandards #beachbody

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Just some Monday thoughts & things I’ve been thinking about that I wanted to share: 💭 Being authentic is always better than trying to be someone you’re not. 💭No one loves themselves 24/7, it’s okay to have highs & lows, that’s normal. 💭 The more successful you become, the more critics and that’s ok. Change will always be met with resistance. 💭Nothing is ever what it seems on social media, you only see the bits that folks choose to share. 💭 Don’t compare yourself, you’re on a different path that’s just yours. Embrace that. 💭If you’re feeling sad, reach out to someone and see if you can be of service to them. It will help you both more than you realize. 💭 It’s okay to ask for help, and it’s okay to receive help. 💭 Taco Bell is the *only* fast food. Fight me. Love you all, tell me what’s some wisdom that you’ve learned lately? Any💡 moments for you? Also drop your Taco Bell order if you can’t think of anything 🤣💁🏻‍♀️ #effyourbeautystandards

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Someone said this was my “boss bitch” look & honestly I feel so seen! 💯💁🏻‍♀️💪🏻😈👑💗 #ccselfcaresummit

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Spoke at @createcultivate #selfcare summit today with amazing folks & said on stage that “being a mom was a full time dumpster fire”.... 🤷🏻‍♀️ How was your day? Wearing @jasonwu Styling @meaghanpoconnor Makeup @makeupbyjmonroy Hair @eduardoponcehair #createandcultivate #effyourbeautystandards

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When paparazzi follows you to the beach and snaps a photo of you digging a wedgie out 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

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Our “President” should be talking about the murder of Sadie Roberts-Joseph instead of telling congresswomen “to go back to where they came”. I’m appalled at what’s happening in America, but grateful for social media because folks like myself that have a large audience are able to tell y’all what’s *really* going on since our “leaders” won’t. Rest in Power #sadierobertsjoseph 💗 💗art by @nikkolas_smith #justiceforsadie

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We’ve been taught that our worth is tied into being a certain size, & this is your reminder to cut that shit out. Art by @bodeburnout ✌🏻

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To all my new followers the past 2 weeks- this is what I look like with clothes on. 🤯🤷🏻‍♀️🤪

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Just blessing your timeline ✨

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So much to smile about ☀️💗 @theisleofparadise 🌟 #effyourbeautystandards #OwnYourGlow 📸 @zoemcconnell

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WHO IS SHE?! SO GLOWYYYYY 🍗👀🥰 I’ve been modeling for 10 years & each campaign I shoot means as much to me as the first! TY @theisleofparadise 💗 📸 @zoemcconnell Hair @earlsimms2 Stylist @meaghanpoconnor Makeup @sarahjaggerink #ownyourglow #effyourbeautystandards

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A couple weeks ago in London I got to shoot with these incredible humans for @theisleofparadise 🌟 Growing up, there was always pressure on me to “get a tan” because it would make me look slimmer... but I knew unless they were magicians it wasn’t happening! From that point on, I just felt like being tan wasn’t for girls like me. This shoot was the first time I’ve ever had a spray tan and tbh, I loved it. My skin was glowing, my teeth were whiter.... and of course I still look fat, but I’m a baby lil fat bronze goddess! 🌟 Working with @julesvonhep and the Isle of Paradise team gave me an opportunity not only to challenge my own misconceptions but to partner with a company who are focused on diversity both in their message and their makeup. Check out my stories for a link to their site where you find out more about their movement 🌟 📸 @zoemcconnell #OWNYOURGLOW #effyourbeautystandards

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Being a visibly fat model/public figure & is exhausting as hell. I look forward to the day when marginalized folks can take up space without it unnecessarily offending the world. 🙃 But until then, I’ll keep ruffling feathers & enjoying every moment of it. Also if you’re sick of me talking about this, imagine how I feel. 🤷🏻‍♀️ #effyourbeautystandards

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I feel pretty damn grateful to wake up another year older, to be on magazine covers like @nylonmag showing others that success isn’t limited to those with “perfect” bodies, a fancy education, or any other lie we’ve been sold. I’m proud trailer trash, went to high school in an old Wal-Mart building, & was told by my own family that I would never amount to anything... & you know what? That’s okay by me. I’m not doing this to prove something to those that never believed in me, I’m doing it for those that never felt represented in the world. My only birthday wish is that you will be able to look in the mirror one day & truly love what you see looking back. Self love can change the damn world! #effyourbeautystandards 📸 @lindseybyrnes

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Giving y’all cake on my birthday 🎂✌🏻✨

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You can’t spell America without titties. @chelcielynnn 👯‍♀️🇺🇸 #homeofletthosetittiesfree

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Fat bodies on magazine covers is my forever mood!! I’m so grateful to be on @nylonmag July Cover & I’m gonna share photos & videos from my shoot all week long! Why? Because my birthday is in 3 days 🎉🎉 AND all I want for my birthday other than cake, presents, & adoration (JK🙃🤣) is for YOU to know that fat bodies are sexy. We are worthy, we deserve love, & whatever else you can dream... ok?! 📸 @lindseybyrnes #effyourbeautystandards

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Literal dream come true!!! Thank you @nylonmag 🤩🎉I’m gonna go cry now!!😭💗💗💗 Editor-In-Chief: @gabriellekorn Photographer: @lindseybyrnes Executive Editor: @kmiversen Fashion + Beauty Editor: @jennaroseigneri Art Direction: @daniokon, @lutkie Social Media Director: @casualpasta Producer: @luvnidleness Videographer: @daniokon @grettasw Line Producer: @charlottecprager Stylist: @meaghanpoconnor Style Assistant: @gessflyy Hair Stylist: @hisvintagetouch Makeup Artist: @shablamgela Nails: @sohotrightnail Brows: @torylynnbrows #effyourbeautystandards

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🌈Happy Pride y’all! 🏳️‍🌈 I’ve always been an ally for the LGBTQ community & I find myself trying to navigate my own sexual identity. I’m still figuring out how I identify and that’s okay because everyone’s journey is different. Love y’all ✌🏻Rainbow bralette @tomboyx 🌈 #pride #pridemonth

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Greetings from Batuu!! Wearing my @rickeythompson shirt #bookedandbusy bc the ppl that talk shit about my FAT ass are at their miserable desk jobs & I’m at Disneyyyyland!!!!! 😎 She’s busy y’all!!! 💅🏻#effyourbeautystandards #galaxysedge

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Reminding myself of this today, and everyday. I talked about this a bit in my book: nearly every good thing that has happened in my life is because I took chances... I stepped into the unknown and even though I was afraid, I knew taking the risk, was better than never knowing what could have been. Being unapologetic in your life is tough & this isn’t for the weary, but god is it so fulfilling. Don’t be afraid to let go of things, people, jobs, situations, etc that are no longer serving you. I also acknowledge that I am saying this as someone that has a lot of privilege, & I know this is all easier said than done, but I figured if I needed this reminder, perhaps some of you did too. 💗 #yougotthis

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I don’t post much about my personal life anymore bc I just assume no one really cares. 🙈 This algorithm stuff has me doubting everything I’ve been doing, and the reality is, unless I’m naked, my posts don’t really “do well”. I mean, good thing I know that IG isn’t real life, but still. 🤡 So, I guess what I’m saying is: Plz enjoy how dewy my skin looks after a 12 hour flight & what do you want me to share more of with y’all??! ( & don’t worry more noodz droppin soon jkkkkkkkk... kinda.) 😇

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Back in LA just in time for short shorts & cancer season ♋️😈 #effyourbeautystandards

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Thank you for all the love! Still can’t believe my @cosmopolitanUK cover won the award for Cover of The Year! 🥳 (Also sorry mom for talking about BJ’s in front of a room of journalists 🤷🏻‍♀️🤭) Thank you @claire_hodge, @farrahstorr & Hearst for choosing me to be part of such a monumental moment for me, & to all of you that voted! 💖I ended my acceptance speech by saying “To all of you, I ask one thing: Don’t do what you think is safe, Do what you feel is right” & urge you all to do the same. Things don’t change unless you change them. 💪🏻💋 Wearing @marchesafashion x @11honore Styled by @meaghanpoconnor Makeup @sarahjaggerink Hair @neciashairstyling #effyourbeautystandards

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Don't be mad cause I'm doing me better than you doing you 😛 (JK I cried for like 5 mins after I took these photos but whatever, I’m still winning) ✌🏻✨ #crybaby

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Dolly Holliday ✌🏻🎶 Y’all know I’m a huge @dollyparton fan & I’ve been waiting for the perfect moment to have a little dress up as my 👑. @neciashairstyling styled this beautiful wig for me, & I did my makeup! My #priscillaonoxeloquii top happened to be in my luggage in London & thought “this is meant to be!” One day I’ll get to meet her & tell her how much she means to me, but until then I’ll keep living my life like Dolly, full of sunshine, big hair, & big ole boobs 🥰 #dollyparton #biggerthehair

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Fathers Day has always been tough for me, and I’d be lying if I said I don’t sometimes wish I knew how it felt to have a loving father in my life. Life isn’t always fair, but man am I grateful to my Mom & my Paw Paw for being my “Dad”. I’m grateful to have two guys in my life who love my boys too, (thanks Nick & John) & can give them the love that I didn’t have growing up. I’ll probably be in therapy forever trying to learn how to be my own dad, & that’s cool bc therapy is important & necessary... & hey, I turned out okayish. 💪🏻 #fathersday #selfparenting

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I was the biggest body on the dance floor and the cutestttttt 💁🏻‍♀️#effyourbeautystandards

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Grateful for good hair & even better friends 👯‍♀️💗 @palomafaith @neciashairstyling 💗

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I’m fat & I work out & I love my body... Shocking huh?! 🙃 Just remember that your size isn’t an indicator of what you are capable of, & if anyone tries to tell you otherwise, sit on them. 😈Thank you for the beautiful, & important piece @cosmopolitanuk! (In this months issue) #effyourbeautystandards

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Living my best life. How bout you? ☀️💦

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Never not thirst trappin’ 😇 After spending nearly my whole life hearing that bodies like mine weren’t sexy or desirable, & then finally realizing that wasn’t true, was revolutionary. So now, I make it a point to always show my body love. To love myself right now, as is, will always be my way of giving the middle finger to everyone that tried to dull my shine. 💪🏻 #effyourbeautystandards

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I love Mexico so much & the people have been so gracious, funny, hardworking, & beautiful inside & out. 🇲🇽🥰♥️

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3 & throwin’ webs! 🕸 Happy Birthday Bowie!!🕷You’ve brought so much joy into our lives and I’m so proud to be your mom! ♥️ His birthday wish was to meet Spider-Man, and Papa @nickhollidayco & Auntie Jo @razor_heartz made it happen & I’ve cried all day because I’m out of the country working. 😭 Being a working mom is tough, especially one that travels so much because you miss important things like today. I know that my baby boy has so much love around him, & he had a beautiful day. We have a lifetime to make memories together Bubba 🥰 #momlife #geminibaby

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Fresh out of the water... drippin’ 💦 #effyourbeautystandards

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Yesterday I got a massage in a cave and swam in turquoise water... Alone. (& It was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life!) Doing things by myself isn’t something I normally try, but this trip I decided to start learning how to enjoy my own company. The heat and my anxiety kept trying to convince me to stay in my room, and I’m so glad I pushed through those feelings bc my fat ass deserved it! 🤗 Mexico has stolen my heart! 🥰 #beyourownbestfriend

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I can’t think of a better way to kick off #pridemonth then by celebrating my friends @jasonikeler & Brandon’s wedding in Mexico surrounded by so much love. 🌈💗 @marylambertsing sang, we ate in a cave, laughed so much & danced all night to Robyn on the beach. Love is such a beautiful thing & I’m really grateful for my friends y’all. 🥰😫🥰 (& no, @denisebidot & I are *not* a couple, but we’ve been friends for nearly a decade & 💗👯‍♀️) #loveislove

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This is how I dress for a beach wedding bc I have no chill & give zero fucks. 🥳 p.s. the grooms loved it💗#effyourbeautystandards #bandjseastheday

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I’m just getting started 💣🔥

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Mexic-Hoooo 👅 @hotelxcaretmexico 🌴 #effyourbeautystandards

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Yup!! My fat ass is ready for my vacation in Mexico! 🥰👙#effyourbeautystandards

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Baby Spice vibes 4 ever 💗 earrings are @fashionnovacurve 💋

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Visited my friend @drghavami for a little non surgical refresh. ➖ People like to say that getting plastic surgery can’t be body positive, but of course it can be! It’s your body to present how you wish. What ISN’T body positive is getting cosmetic procedures and not being honest about it, because that just sets up another unattainable beauty standard. ➖ Just make sure that you are doing it for YOU and not because of what other people think! And in the immortal words of the very enhanced Dolly Parton who I have tattooed on me - “it costs a lot of money to look this cheap!” ➖ #effyourbeautystandards #FuckYourBeautyStandards

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Yea, you are cute but do you think I can 💩 alone? 🤔😏 Now I know why my mom locked the door when she used the bathroom when I was a kid. 🙃

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Lookin like a thick ass Catwoman 😉 Wearing @fashionnovacurve 🖤